Cold November morning. Just took jab. Right leg. In new flat in Bottmingen. Moved in officially Oct 01. Now as a single Dad with two children 17 and 21. Crazy few weeks. Spending thousands getting setup. Moving town here is worse than moving country. So much bureaucracy. Apartment looks great. Brand new. Expensive but worth it for the new start. Aiming to try and get an earlier than 2 year divorce so can begin with a clean break. It’s been an emotional roller coaster- no letup. Sometimes I need to pinch myself if this is really truly happening to me. Feels like an out of body experience. Will try out current lifestyle for a while then decide what to do long term with the rest of my life. At 55 beginning again will be an adventure and I need to think positively and optimistically about the future. Should be a fun fresh just fucking do it live it, love it life. Roll on!
Soon to move out to a new single life. Just back from Kamalaya. A life changer. Took injection left leg. Wishing me the best of luck. Life goes on. I will survive. Just another small bump in the long road of life. The FUD Beard. Living it.
August 5th right thigh. Took injection. It’s a bright warm Summer Saturday morning. I feel depressed. Distant and remote. The last 7-9 weeks have been a living hell. Family life barely functioning as my other half spends most of her time checked out and not home. Things have not got better. I need to move on. Hopefully the post in September sees life in a better light.
Way behind on my monthly injection. Having the worst month in a long time. Trying to come to terms with the end of the family. Plus going insane with trying to keep to a normal life and putting up with the situation in the background. Tonight felt the old echo of AS and that creeping pain so reached for the jab. Left thigh. Life is due to get a lot worse before it gets better. I have two paths ahead. Take a proactive action that may expose a difficult situation or put up with it until the papers are signed. Currently very depressed and hopeless. Not seeing any light at the end of the tunnel. Let’s see. Life must go on.
Loved Hong Kong. Highly successful visit. Really cool. Lovely people and a city full of surprises. Already planning a trip to Thailand. Just took my April injection – right thigh. No issues. Waited 6 weeks this time round. No back issues but strangely scratched like mad all over for the past few nights. Not sure if this is a symptom. Back into running. Lots of half marathons planned. Ran 10km Birslauf with new PB of 52 mins. Nice. Also did a 25 min 5 km yesterday. Starting new social media job May 1st. Had to wait over 6 months before even knew had a definite job. Crazy times. Summer is on the doorstep. Trying to stay healthy and keep my head up. Need warm weather so badly. Helps AS. Need to think long term about living in a warmer land. Let’s see. Until next time.
Anyway heading to Hong Kong Monday March 6 for a mad getaway. Not sure how it will work out. But decided to do something I never did before. Start exploring Asia. Took injection tonight at 9.35 pm March 2nd on the left leg. No pain. But hopefully gain. Just got over a cold so should be 100% for the trip. At 8 hours ahead and traveling over 16 hrs Monday to Tuesday I will be bolloxed. Let’s see. It’s an adventure. And you are only young and healthy once. So fuck it. Let’s roll. May get in a run in HK. Will definitely keep busy. See me when I get back.
Surviving the current harsh Winter weather. -6 degrees on average the past two weeks. Praying for warmer weather. Took the injection tonight right leg. No issues. Maybe waited too long between injections this time. But. A lot going on in the family. Came back December 30 and my world collapsed. Trying to keep smiling and remaining optimistic. Whatever happens. Life goes on. The home life is important and keeping healthy and happy remains a priority. Life is too short to dwell on the past. Looking forward to warmer sunny days and getting on with life.